Andy and the Universe

We so many times tend to generalize our thoughts for the rest of the human kind. I think I generalized one of my thoughts again. Sorry for that; but I have lately discovered that I tend to do this very often; I am in the process of evolution now and I realized suddenly that I am a very unique being. For starters, I am a combination of billions of microscopic entities which have assembled in a way which was never tried before. Let the scientists first finish debating about the microscopic entities, and  in the mean time we (:x), sorry (again generalizing) I will call them andy. These  andy’s on there own may be lifeless but somehow the combination creates a living being which is me <adding this comparison for the sake of paradox; the andy’s can even be alive>. Somehow they work for the good of me; my functioning and they don’t even know of my existence.  But do they even know of there own existence? Every andy is working hard, which can be proved by the mere fact that I am writing this blog. And when this unique combination was put in an external environment in which it was never before, the wiring inside my brain happened in such a way which can never happen.

If I am a unique being then all my thoughts and actions are unique; what I think could never have been thought in the same manner, what I have done could never have been in the same manner. Hence I feel that it is wrong on my part to generalize what I think/believe onto the whole of human kind. For example if I say that we are destroying the planet, or we are responsible for all the trash that is lying on the road; whom am I referring to, how do I know about others; I can be certain about me and my actions but not about others.  There is no we but only I, it is I who think, who does and thus it is I who needs to change in order to see the change happening around me. And it is not difficult to change also; all I need to do is to think for the change to happen and voila. The wiring inside my brain will change as I think and as a result I will change.

Coming back to point about the andy’s; there are so many of them and each one doing a specific role in my body. The funny thing being they don’t even know that their doing one particular task is keeping me functioning; they don’t even know about me, and also not about the existence of other andy’s in my body. Still without knowing about other andy’s or me; they are working in such a coordination that keeps making me do what I want to do. I sometimes ponder over the fact that if I am the andy in someones body. If this universe is alive and I am just serving one purpose in the universe. But then I feel that I need not know about it; I just have to do what I feel like doing and it will serve the purpose. There might be trouble when I do something against my intuition; just like the andy’s in my body. If they did something out of line I might be in trouble and in turn they will be in trouble. Similarly the universe will be in trouble if I did something out of line and inturn I will be trouble. I will need to change if I am not following my heart and being intuitive; ’cause if I am not then there might be some problem with the universe. For which I just have to think and rewire my brain and voila the universe will change around me.

All these andy’s make me feel like an universe, make me feel as big as possible and the universe starts making me feel like andy. And having studied programming, the funda of recursion comes into my mind again and again. Am I the universe or the andy; or is this a never ending loop?  Is every andy an universe and every universe an andy? Is this the way it is? But then I need not think all this and just follow what the heart says, and I will serve the purpose if I am an andy and I don’t even need to know about it.

Class Notes

 

The class notes copy always starts with the one page that carries my name, and sometime I get stuck on it during the class hours.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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As the class starts and I start listening; some of the times I make very organized notes; with the topic name written cleanly; all the contents where they should be; after all I have to study them for the exams.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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But most of the times I make notes here and there; as I cannot concentrate for the entire class duration, there are periods when I feel motivated and start scribbling down everything that is being taught. However I regret them not being organized.

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But then there are times when I am awake the whole of the class and I make full use of the time. I jot down everything that has been taught in a very neat way.

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All of the above are the ideal days, on a regular day I am not able to concentrate fully and am only able to take some scrambled notes.

 

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And at the end of the class there is always this one state of my mind…

 

Diversification (Love Story 2050) vs Non-Diversification(Ugly aur Pagli)

There was a very rare event that happened today (7:00 AM 1st july,2008), the sort of event that happens once in a decade, I woke up early and then I had breakfast in the college mess. These events independently may not be as rare (they are rare, with a better frequency) but the combination of both is as rare as they can get. But let us not ponder over it, as this is not the main point of this blog. This event actually triggered another event, me writing this blog. Now when one goes to mess, and the television is kept in front of you, you are bound to watch it. And I would dare even glance at the news channels in the morning (the breaking news, the sansani’s, and God knows what). So here I was watching promos of the upcoming movies. And then you have two movies which caught my attention: ‘Love Story 2050′ & ‘Ugly aur pagli’.

While Love Story 2050 is a perfect example of diversification, ugly aur pagli on the other hand is one for non-diversification. These movies are bringing global cinema to Indian audience and giving the audience the updates on what is happening or has happened in global cinema. Normal people do not indulge in browsing rapidshare/torrents/P2P links on a daily basis in order to watch out for any new movie that is coming up and hence there is a need for giving them the updates.

There are two kinds of packages that are currently available in the market for these normal people:

• Diversification: watch 4-5 block buster movies in 3 hours (eg. Love Story 2050)
• Non-Diversification: watch a single hit movie(originally 2 hours) in 3 hours (eg. Ugly aur Pagli)

Promo of Love Story 2050 showcased that one can watch The time machine, The 5th element, Independence Day, Star Wars, and rest are part of the surprise package. And my favourite part of the promo was the dragonballz style fight. The hero being hit by a power attack in a manner that happens in dragonballz. This is just the right movie for people who normally fast forward movies while watching; these sort of movies will be showing 4-5 movies in 3 hours, the best scenes are meticulously picked and put in them. Lots of effort are carried in order to ensure that the scenes do not lose the essence of originality. For eg.  the time machine and the room in which the time machine is (Love Story 2050) is exactly similar to the original, so that one gets best of the trade.

The second type of movie, that is, non-diversication types, are best suited for people who watches a movie with full patience and never ever fast forwards. The upcoming movie in this category, Ugly aur Pagli brings to the Indian audience the block buster South Korean romantic comedy ‘My Sassy Girl’. These sort of movies show only one movie and put in the bollywood flavor to make it of 3 hours.

However no one knows what is the successful formula, whether it is diversification or non-diversification. I have always heard that diversification is good. But then I cannot predict the future. Let us wait and watch what actually clicks.

WHO WILL SAVE firecat from fireboob????

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OHHHH NO!! The firecat has been trapped in the boobie trap of the evil witch fireboob. Now who will save firecat??

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Will HIS COUSIN THE PUNCHCAT save him,

will HUGE BUTT PEOPLE help PUNCHCAT, who saved there butts from the dog above,

will THE CHOSEN ONE help them?

and finally will OBAMA take off his shirt and save his ally the firecat,

The day when Rajiv became tall

After living for 8312 days on this planet, I thought I was the one who knew about Rajiv, more than any one did. But it is now, the 25th of may 2008 at around 2 pm I might be proven wrong. The day began like all the normal days. Rajiv and I woke up at around 9 am today, very early to the standards we have set. There was a time when we woke up regularly at around 2 pm and sometimes even 4. However to discuss that would be to digress, so let us come back. Freshened up and ate three aloo paranthas (yummy); <freshened up means lightening up and brushing the teeth’s>. Then we had my routine thinking session; Rajiv started to think doing the work I had planned, but I started to listen to some green day songs and chatting on gtalk. We soon forgot about the work he had to do and started to orkut now, but I soon became bored of that too. The thought of work again came to his mind, it was like a evil dark lord who wanted to ruin my Sunday.

I have this theory that people read daily predictions in order to give themselves a hope that they will taste success today, or some work which was knocking at the doors of uncertainty will suddenly realize that the doors have opened and they are the one’s of certainty, or they will gain some treasure, or blah blah. I think that you understand what I want to say, that these predictions are never saying something which one does not wants to hear. Instead they tell what you wanted to, and then they motivate you to do the stuff. If they said what one does wanted to hear, they would not be as successful as they are. They will be violating the laws of supply and demand. Hey I again digressed; coming back to the topic.

Now Rajiv wanted to read something good about himself or that something good is going to happen, like the work that he had to do will miraculously be completed today without any efforts from his side. So he started googling about some astrology sites. He googled upon one of the sites that looked good; although he knows what he wants to read and that all of the sites will provide him with that information, he did wanted it to look authentic. So he registered at one of these sites and read the daily prediction, which was exactly what he wanted to read. However there were various other section and one of those were ‘general predictions’. I was curious, and clicked this and started reading. This was the starting point of me doubting my knowledge about Rajiv. This is what the physical description had to say:

Good complexion, well formed body, tall, slender in youth but tendency to stoutness in middle age, smooth, brown to black hair, blue or brown eyes, passionate, parrot like nose round or oval face, good features, curves and contours of body are regular, often have dimples, good looking graceful and youthful appearance with sweet smile and with attractive countenance. Almond eyes which speak themselves. Such persons look younger than age normally.

I starting wondering when did Rajiv become tall and slender; when did he develop this parrot like nose and from when does he started having dimples, regular curves and contours of body. And what are these almond eyes, I was so confused. I hadn’t seen Rajiv from some time; and was wondering that can a person undergo so much changes in one night sleep. I had heard that while people sleep they become taller, but how tall do they become. I was confused, my updated knowledge had the picture of a five feet four inches person weighing 64 kilos, who barely takes bath due to laziness, with a small nose, and fat cheeks and has a growing belly.

I wanted to put an end to this confusion, and there was only one way. I stood up, slided the keyboard rack in and walked through the dining room and stood in front of the mirror. All the confusion was gone, it was still the same Rajiv. And it was still me who knew most about him, more than anyone else on this planet. I now started to listen to some songs again.

when the computer ate my ice cream [:x]

In order to do one task we have to do so many others. If the primary task to done is what one wanted to do; then he will finish all the secondary tasks with an excitement; no matter how boring they are. But if the primary task is the one which one hates (or not likes), then even if the secondary task involves his most passionate subjects, the work shows no or low enthusiasm.

At present I am doing an internship, and the best part of it is the lunch break; it is the time when I get to eat the ice cream. It is amazingly hot and humid in this place and the ice cream is a great relief. Rajiv disagrees though; according to him the whole office is air conditioned, and hence my claims are false. Anyways it is always enjoyable to eat the ice cream in summers and issue is debatable.

There is a mother dairy ice cream cart right outside our office. It is a very typical cart; and I always try out a new flavor everyday. But today was the day when the computer ate my ice cream. I had finished tasting every flavor he had; and I recently saw the advertisement of mother dairy choco chip and nutty almond. So I wanted to taste one of these flavors today. The ice cream man (we shall call him ice man from now on); however said that there has been a problem in the software in the mother dairy office. They computer shows some ice creams not shipped which have been shipped. So they have stopped all the new flavors. Now this ice man might never have even seen a computer, (ok…. he might have seen one). But at least would never have operated one or would know a thing or two about the computer. My life was getting affected by the computer where I least affected it to; and I was not able to taste the new flavor of the ice cream.  And the person who was directly getting affected was not even computer literate.

Why has the software wants to do this. Does it feel the heat of the summers too? Does it want the ice cream to cool off the heat. So it is keeping all the ice cream with itself. I do expect that either this blog will get many hits or many hate hits or no hits or may some day I will open a website which will get famous and I will get money or I will advertise my movie through web but I never thought that I would not be able to eat the ice cream probably due to a person who did not handle the software properly. May be tomorrow when I go to buy aloo, pyaaz, tamatar the sabji waala will say that there is no aloo today due to problem in the software of the fertilizer company. Or may be the sabji waala or the ice man will decide to become computer literate and have there own laptops. They will work with a Just-in-time inventory and operate laptops; order online and stuff.

I do expect my life to get affected by the computer; but I never expected it to eat off the ice cream I wanted to.

My plans

Ever since I came into existence; my primary motive was to fulfill the needs of Rajiv Fonia (read ‘about foniars’ for more details). But in order to do that I had to do certain things. So I followed all the conventional paths; Engineering plus MBA. Presently I am running after my mba degree; hope I will catch her within the two years. One year has passed by and it has been a success. I have reached all the places I needed to.

But in this process there are certain things which I saw, experienced and liked. So the needs of Rajiv Fonia remained same but my needs increased as time passed. It has been directly proportionate to the amount of time I live. I do not know whether this relationship will remain as it is; but for as long as I have lived the needs are increasing. Although the goal of my existence was to fulfill the needs of Rajiv Fonia; seeing that it is easily accomplished my mind craved to do stuff which happened around me. And after realizing that the needs of Rajiv Fonia can be fulfilled in a time less than what is allocated to me; I tend to utilize that time to fulfill my own plans. Rajiv and I have come to terms on this topic; he utilizes this time by sleeping when I am not in a mood for doing anything, otherwise I use for the fulfilling the plans I have made.

Plan number one: Make a movie; this has been my dream since I started watching movies. Whenever I watched a movie I used to think that if a particular scene was filmed in some other way the scene would have been much better. Or if the end of the story was shown first and the beginning at the end then the movie would have been more gripping. But one needs so many people in order to make a movie. To start off with, we need people to act; and then there are the musicians and so many more people.

Till now in order to fulfill this plan I have taken up all the opportunities I had; I have made five videos, all five minute long. First one is called ‘finally final’; it was a music video which me and my friends made in our final year of engineering. Rather than writing more about it, I will just put the link up so that you can see it.

The original idea of the song belongs to Jai Shankar Beban(lyrics + guitar); and this song would not have been possible without Sharad(vocals), Pulkit(vocals + flute), Dodo(drums), Dhaneel(tabla). You can see my photo when the credits called director roll along with the photo.

After that I have made four videos during my first year at the mba, two out of which have been shared on you tube and I will put the links for that up as well. I have contributed in the editing of one of the videos (mile sur).

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I would have loved to show you the other two as well; but they haven’t been uploaded on youtube.

Plan number 2: Write a novel; I don’t know why I had this idea in my mind. Because unlike the movies idea; which I got by getting inspired from watching a lot of movies; I haven’t read many novels. Infact I just read 2 novels completely. I think this is because I want to tell a story and making a movie is so time consuming and resource exhaustive that some day it came to my mind that I should start writing first.

So I have decided that year 2008 will be the reading year. I am presently reading ‘the curious incident of the dog in the night-time’. After which I am going to read ‘interpreter of maladies’. The dog one is a nice novel; you should read it.

Also Saurabh and I have decided that we will read a novel every week and write reviews so that we can improve our writing style. Although Nehte (Saurabh) has read loads of novels and stories; and his writing skills are way better than mine. So I will be learning alot from him.

Plan number 3: Work/Venture; This is a topic I am really confused about. Whether I should work or whether I should start some venture. The more I think the more I get confused, and the more the ideas that I get. I somewhat feel stupid not to think of simple ideas that others have thought I couldn’t which were a hit and more stupid when the ideas I thought were implemented and are very successful. I couldn’t implement them due to lack of resources.

I have come to the conclusion that I will start something that requires no resources at all and if it is a success then leverage over that to implement my other plans or think of some other resource less plan. And work simultaneously.

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I think these are all the plans I have. More on this later.

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